I'm starting to realize I can get real sappy and philosophical sometimes.
I will literally sit in class and ponder instead of listening to my professors.
If you haven't noticed, I've been kinda going through some identity crisis' over the past few years.
No, not the pierce-your-nose-wear-all-black-and-rebel type of thing, that's not really how I roll....
It is more like I have this great opportunity that is college, the chance to redefine who I am.
I always just went by what others labeled me as and I eventually took those labels and stuck them on myself. They weren't even bad things. I was that dancer chick, that weird girl, so-and-so's sister, and that really shy girl. Others called me stuck up and a know-it-all.
But here, living on my own, I get to make my own choices...even if they aren't always right.
I get to choose what I believe
I get to choose who my friends are.
I get to choose who I am!
That left me feeling utterly lost, and hey, I still am.
But lately I'm seeing a glimpse of myself I never knew existed.
I am so thankful that we have the agency to follow our hearts contents.
That fire inside me is starting to light up again, I'm finding a new passion for life.
School can be stifling, but I know photography is what I want to do professionally and creatively!
I've become so much more active in my religion, not just through attendance, but active participation. I'm actually listening, praying, and reading the scriptures! The feeling I get is no other. I can feel so much comfort and have so much love for the people around me.
I find myself laughing more, not just giggling, but my deep, hearty, sounds like Santa Claus chuckle.
And you know what? I like it.
I have a butt. Yes, I have a butt! And I'm gonna work with what my Mama gave me! I don't care if its too much booty for the pants, I'm gonna drop it like its hot!
More discoveries to come...but for now...
I will literally sit in class and ponder instead of listening to my professors.
If you haven't noticed, I've been kinda going through some identity crisis' over the past few years.
No, not the pierce-your-nose-wear-all-black-and-rebel type of thing, that's not really how I roll....
It is more like I have this great opportunity that is college, the chance to redefine who I am.
I always just went by what others labeled me as and I eventually took those labels and stuck them on myself. They weren't even bad things. I was that dancer chick, that weird girl, so-and-so's sister, and that really shy girl. Others called me stuck up and a know-it-all.
But here, living on my own, I get to make my own choices...even if they aren't always right.
I get to choose what I believe
I get to choose who my friends are.
I get to choose who I am!
That left me feeling utterly lost, and hey, I still am.
But lately I'm seeing a glimpse of myself I never knew existed.
I am so thankful that we have the agency to follow our hearts contents.
That fire inside me is starting to light up again, I'm finding a new passion for life.
School can be stifling, but I know photography is what I want to do professionally and creatively!
I've become so much more active in my religion, not just through attendance, but active participation. I'm actually listening, praying, and reading the scriptures! The feeling I get is no other. I can feel so much comfort and have so much love for the people around me.
I find myself laughing more, not just giggling, but my deep, hearty, sounds like Santa Claus chuckle.
And you know what? I like it.
I have a butt. Yes, I have a butt! And I'm gonna work with what my Mama gave me! I don't care if its too much booty for the pants, I'm gonna drop it like its hot!
More discoveries to come...but for now...
I am Jessica.
and
I am happy!
And I know a lot of that has to do by being surrounded by all of you! ;)
Love you!
2 comments:
Jessica I love you! You are great no matter what you do! Can we hang out? And also, I want to see those pictures we did!
Jess,
If anyone desreves to be happy, it's you! I know you will continue to discover an incredibly talented woman who is beautiful and amazing both inside and out. I am so grateful you are my friend and I love you to pieces! Keep smilin girl!
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