No Resolution

I know you guys are just dying to see my 2010 year in review...

too bad.

But I bet you are just spinning in your round office chairs getting dizzy

to hear my new year resolutions....

sorry, its not going to happen.

I decided that 2010, while it was a great year,

is over.

I can't tell you what is going to happen in me in 2011 because I don't know...

but here is what I do know:

Next week I start another semester of school.

yuck.

However, I am stoked to be challenged,

to learn,

to grow,

and remain closer to finishing my degree!

(it will be worth it, right?)

I am going to bear my trials better,

be nicer,

but ultimately,

be me.

I noticed that I have been letting 

the bad things and people

 in this world get the better of me.

Sometimes bad people don't always come in black clothing and masks.

This has lead me to lose the girl I used to be.

Over the past couple of years I have noticed this

but especially over the last week.

This last weekend I spent a lot of time driving through Idaho.

I couldn't believe how beautiful it was!

I actually enjoyed getting lost and

overshooting our freeway exit by 50 miles!

I looked into the rear view mirror and got a peek of the old me;

the one who smiles when mad, sad, angry, and every other emotion.

The one who isn't afraid.

The one who is determined, strong, driven.

Hopefully 2011 will lead to me finding her.

I sure miss her.

Here is to new beginnings.

No false resolutions,

wishes,

or mislead hopes.

Here is to living a better, more happy life.

Here is to finding me! :)

If you want to tag along, feel free.

Jess.